I believe that something all followers of Christ go through at times is something I call desert days. I go through times when I feel as dry as the desert inside and God feels distant. It’s as if something has doused the passion that’s supposed to be burning within me and it’s left me feeling empty and lonely inside. It feels like I’m not growing or moving forward spiritually, though I yearn to. And I long to be filled with a burning passion for God and to feel closer to Him, but instead I’m like a desert inside. Is it just me, or do you also go through times like these? They come and go, and then God feels so close again, like a refreshing rain. I’m just being honest about something that most Christians, including me, are rather reluctant to talk about.
I wonder why we experience those empty and dry feelings. I know that on His side, Jesus’ heart yearns to be closer to us and to have a stronger relationship with us. Maybe it’s because we get so caught up in our own lives that we lose something in the process. Maybe we stop fixing our eyes fully on the author and perfecter of our faith. If we don’t spend enough time with our friends, we sever our connection with them. And it’s the same with God. We need to spend quality time with Him and focus on Him during that time. I really struggle with this as my mind flies from one thing to the next with the speed of light. I think another thing is that we need to keep God at the top of our list of priorities; another, but worthwhile challenge.
So if there are any others out there who go through times of what I call drought, you’re not alone. During times such as these, I feel like clinging onto God even more, as if I can keep Him from moving away from me, when in reality I know that He’ll never leave me. I cry out to Him to full me up again with His spirit. Maybe these feelings are normal. Maybe as followers of Christ, the devil tries to cut our connection with Jesus, so as to distance us from Him. But we can’t let the enemy win. God is right there, as close as the air that surrounds us; He’s always faithful, always loving and always true. And in His timing, He’ll send a cleansing rain that stirs and revives us once again.
P.S So sorry I haven't posted in a long time. My life has been hectic with studying and exams! :)